Weapon R.Y.X.

Some people just don’t know what “Kyle is taking a day off” means. I’m about to turn this damn phone off.

Otherwise, we had a great night out. Dinner was expensive, but excellent. With everything going on, we really have not had a chance to go out for a nice diner date for a while. We sort of planned to have an early night and get some good sleep, but didn’t actually go to sleep until around two in the morning.

Yes, he’s nice enough, but a bit arrogant. He boasted, to several, about his skills and how he was one of the best fighters back in…his former posting. I thought nothing of it, but Luke thought it would be good for Markus to “get a feel” for the differences between his previous posting and HQ. Markus thought it was a good idea and that he’d be able to ‘show us how things are taken care of back home’. He then told me he’d go easy.

Granted, those operating out of our remote locations often do not know of or have even heard of me. Guardian control, here at HQ, does train the special agents, but the remote locations often recruit their own “muscle personnel” for security and agent backup.

Markus is one that didn’t know I existed until today and his cocky attitude isn’t something I generally approve of here. So, a few followed us to the conditioning room and I let Markus begin the exercise. I had thought of taking it easy on him, but decided he should understand that why he’s here. Three to five seconds is all it took to have him on his back and my claws at his neck. He wanted a second round, stating he wasn’t ready the first time. He bounced around, shaking his arms as if warming up before coming at me as if to take me by surprise. This time, maybe two to four seconds from the moment his first lunge was initiated.

This time, he became very agitated and wanted another go. His attitude had turned sour and I could tell he wasn’t going to let up. So I granted his third attempt. Again, more bouncing around like a boxer building up a charge for a strike, but I had enough and as he sprung forward, I gave him a charge of my own. It wasn’t a strong jolt of electricity, just enough to temporarily paralyze him into collapsing to the ground. He twitched slightly before beginning to regain control of his muscles. I leaned over him and asked if we were done. No response other than some unintelligible murmurs and grunts.

He was taken to the infirmary to be checked out just to make sure his heart rate and nervous system is still okay. I did give him a bit more of a charge than I normally do to get a point across, but I wanted him to know he has a lot to learn and today’s lesson was not to underestimate an opponent no matter what you may know or think about them.

Matt just surprised me. He requested to take tomorrow off too. He said he didn’t think he’d be allowed to on such short notice, but he got it! He rushed up and told me the news and said we should cut out early and go out for dinner tonight. I told him to grab his stuff and we’d go. I told Luke we were both leaving and before he could finish his half effort sentence in protest, I told him is was not up for discussion and don’t call either of us all weekend.
Sometimes I do enjoy throwing my position out there to get my way, especially when it means spending several days off with my hunky boyfriend. It’s been a couple of days since…..it’s just been a busy week and we’ve both been exhaused. I am really looking forward to later tonight.

But first, drinks before dinner!

I’m taking tomorrow off. Yes, I’ve decided I will do that. Today is going to be a pain with this new person and the dozen of other tasks I won’t get done. How am I supposed to do this stuff when I will be training someone? It makes no sense. But, I will be nice to this person unless he has an attitude and then…..well, I’ll reserve that decision for later if needed.

Well, he seems nice and intelligent. Not like the last few sent my way. Maybe this won’t be too bad.

I love a massage and he does it so good. I think I’ll sleep well tonight and maybe be ready for this Markus person tomorrow morning. Good night everyone.

Someone named Markus has been transfered from one of our remote sites to be trained by me and will be under my command. I don’t need someone else here. I’m not looking forward to this. It’s already been a crap day. So many tasks have been given to me and they keep getting re-prioritized and now this person being sent here. I’m not an office or paperwork person and I don’t have time to babysit someone. I don’t need this crap!

I decided to go workout my bad mood, but before I left, I went to see Matt. He has more projects to work on, but I was so fustrated I had to see him. I vented and I created a bit of a scene, but he helped calm me down. Then I did it. He was sitting at his workspace while I had been standing in my show of agitation. After he talked me into a much more calm state. I grabbed him by his shirt collar, pulled him up so we were face to face, and told him, “thanks babe”, before giving him a long kiss.
I think the whole room fell into complete silence. When I broke the kiss, he smiled and almost in a whisper said, “wow”. I told him I’d see him later tonight. Noticing the room’s silence and attention draw toward us, I looked around, with that intimidating look that Matt had mentioned, and stated, “if anyone has an issue, I’ll be glad to settle it for you.”
I then left for my workout. Matt sent a text, before I got to the conditioning room, and while I’m not inclined to say what he sent, I know he may add it here later, so maybe I should beat him to it…..no, I won’t.
Anyway, it felt good. Kissing him in front of the others, that it. It felt good threatening them too, but that wasn’t the highlight. Showing affection is not against the regulations. Going any further is, but not hugging and kissing. It was good and I got my workout. I feel really sore. Matt is cooking me his mother’s spaghetti and later he said he’d give me a full rundown and massage. Not sure what a “full rubdown” is unless it’s kind of like that massage thing where the person pulls their hands down along the other’s body? Don’t know. I guess I’ll find out.

Otherwise, the session went good. She was proud and happy that I found someone I could connect with and allow close to me. I had to explain the whole story and at first she thought I was making parts of it up. She said that if I would have just met him and been at this point of the relationship, she would have been concerned, but since he and I knew eachother before hand, she’s not all that surprised. She said that love can be surprising, like a Morning Glory. It seems to be nothing more than a small, frail vine, creeping along the ground and quite unnoticeable until one morning, you look down and see it’s blossomed perfect little trumpet shaped, blue flowers overnight as if to announce the marvel it had been hiding durring the daylight hours.
Or it was something like that. I’ve never seen one of these Morning Glory plants. I’ll have to look them up later to see what she’s talking about. But anyway, she thinks Matt will be good for me, beyond sharing love, she said he could help me deal with these issues that I’ve been carrying with me for so long. I agree. Matt is the best.

I need to be less worried about what Matt says. I think I went through a too long of a period where I kept so much hidden that some things worry me when I know certain people will find out something. It’s not like Matt wants to have sex in public or do something vulgar. He is just open about his thoughts. And feelings for me.

So, I’ve decided I’m not going to try keeping our relationship obscured from those we work with and today I will prove it. I’m going to put an end to the rumors….or perhaps start juicier ones. Who knows. I’m also going to tell the doc about him today. Yes, no more hiding and if he wants to say or add anything to my blog, he has my permission. We discussed these last night and I apologized for being too uptight about it. He’s my boyfriend and he has every right to express what he wants about me, himself, and our relationship.

I’m not mad at him. I’m just…I panicked a little. I kept my promise. It’s not deleted, just moved. He said he’s going to make it up to me now.

I’m not sure we actually washed his car much. It was more of spraying each other with the water hose and throwing soap suds. We created a bit of a scene. Two shirtless guys, his hot bod, wet, soapy, playing around. I think if it wasn’t very obvious that we are more than just friends, that group of girls may have come over and probably would have hit on my man. They did stick around for a bit before finally deciding to get in one of their cars and leave. Then again, we did put on a bit more of a show when we realized they were hanging around. It’s a parking lot and they stood over by their car talking while staring in our direction. Yeah, we noticed and had to exaggerate the show.
It’s funny, I would never have considered doing that before Matt. I never felt too comfortable being looked at until he started looking at me in that special way. I would say it’s a, “wow, he’s mine and I’m so lucky”, look because that’s how I feel when I look at him. He’s extended my comfort zone and increased my playfulness. I use to think I could only be this playful when I drank a lot, but then maybe I’m constantly drunk from his presence. And him, the light glistening off the water running over his tanned body, tracing down each curve over his shoulders, down his chest and abs, it’s…..yeah…..it’s hot. It makes me want to….anyway, that was almost a bit too much. We’re going to grab a bite to eat, then get some coffee, and lounge by the pool for a bit before going swimming.

Matt’s and my schedule for the day:
Go out and eat breakfast, wash his car, go for a swim, …….. the rest to be determined. It’s going to be a nice and relaxing day.

A random thing. I hate how going into a previous post and making one spelling correction resets the post time mark. No, I posted that several hours ago, not right now.